little more glue everytime it breaks

forgiveness?

forgiveness is a grey area. walks the line between contempt and pride.
simple words envolped in a complex dance between sincerity and bitterness.

it is easier to forgive when you are guilty, because the sooner you forgive the sooner the forgeting process can start
or is it just that as soon as fogiveness is mutaul and has erased the awkward ness you are free to make more mistakes.

the light turned red upon accusal
and is now green with forgiveness.

are they mistakes if you are not ashamed of them?
maybe even proud of them in a warped way.
like finding salvation in secrets.

because when people think they can see through you
and no matter how hard you object (because they can also see "clear through"
your objection), when surrounded by those people,
you harbor secrets.

they start to define you,
the problem comes when you are defined by the things others can't see.
because if you are not what they are seeing,
what are they seeing?
its a rough skeleton, what you allow people to see, i know i have been here before, i'm just comming from a different angle.

so when eventually one is defined by secrets
they start to feel isolated, they want to let some people in,
so you do, you let in a few, then a few more, a secret society of secrets, how cute.

well when those few you let in slip up
thre are no more secrets,
just rumors, acusations, when all you were doing is trying to find a way to define yourself in a comfortable numbness.
there is a great deal of safety one can mine into the dangerous buisness of secrets.

well the cats out of the bag,
pandora opend the box

and you play the forgiveness game
so when mutal forgiveness has been given
what is to stop you from fallin gback into the habbit of secrets

if for so long that is the lense you saw yourself through
it will be undoubtly hard to walk away from it, them - - secrets.

and what if i admit to being sorry to save face
but arn't?
are you then dishonest?
its another secret and you cant resolve secrets with secrets.

it's a bad cycle.
and i am sure you can see where this is going
but i find it fascinating
that human beings manage to dig these graves for themselves.

we all do it
to some extent
wether on a grander or smaller scale
it's happens

people get hurt,
people descive
people get better

wash.rinse.repeat.

what i want to know is why?
and how do we prevent it.

i hope that made sense.