happy birthday

moving too fast

(not buckled in)

breaking

inhibited: a free falling of something felt

never uttered

for fear language will give way

- fail to encompass -

what seeing and feeling has become

inside a mind so sure

of things unchanging

like roses

and coffee

strong and silent

rich in legacy,

in hearts now breaking.

hoping: for relief, for beginning again

safe and waiting

in florida sun.

afraid to merge

"I keep feeling that people are becoming less human and more animalistic. They seem to think less and feel less so that everyone is operating on a very primitive level. I wonder what you and I will see in our lifetimes. It seems so hopeless yet we must keep on trying ... I guess we can't escape being a product of the times, can we?"

— Bret Easton Ellis (The Informers)