9.18.2006

poisoned, for the feeling

an internal paradox:

what i need to survive feeds only on that which kills me.


so really what i need to do is turn me weakness into a strenght
but i doing that i fear i would make every other aspect of my induvidual weaker.


and it's hard at a distance, memories arnt maliable and neither is the past.
turning around now would be the worst thing for me, but am i really any farther ahead from where i started?
no

sometimes i wonder why i even try
i think it comes from the desire to feel again.

yeah, thats it.

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