just what pulls me in

if i did not dance, i would not breath.
so how can such a passion feed on something so unhealthy (my internal paradox) and feed such a horrifying insecurity i hold within myself?

i guess those emotions, fear, dread, want, are all the basis for passion. love.
and the principle emotions - give or take - can be applied to most situations,
there for making it a theory
right?

but is it healthy for such a dependancy to have the ability to push one towards everything that is dentrimental to a that person?
another person, a fear, a condition.

because sometimes it's completely internal, the enemy is your own mind, and sometimes the enemy is the only familiar face - the one you conect to "love". the throws of passion wear so many masks. who said that passion had a" good "conotation, it should and we all want it to, but is not passion just a fervent conviction?
a motivation through space.

are you running to or away from something?
and where should you be running?
hell, why are you running in the first place?

asking these questions, forces analysis upon the whole principle of passion and it's effect on an induvidual.
my thought process started at conviction . . . went to agression . . . running . . . to/from . . . fear.

but i guess that fear, that subconsious tendancy to run, is what keeps you hanging onto the passion and not falling victim to those darker things.

and fear could be a positive thing...if harnessed productivly.
are you afraid that you are not running away from something that you should be?
frozen in space, when you should be out of sight?
running to the very thing you should be running from?
or running from yourself?

you have to walk the lines, those fine lines, and you have to have fine lines to see both sides, to prioritize. to determin value. . . love.

and i guess that makes sense,
(thought i will revist and elaborate upon this theory when i have more time)
it's just hard to keep sight of all that
esspecially when on days like today
i look in the mirror.