ghosts still keep the bed warm

how is it that just by talking to someone
you can feel them slipping through your fingers?

and you know you have no control over it
you've never had control

paradoxically, with just the right words
they can lull you back into a false sense of security
or at the very least the security of longing.
of missing.

so how's it going to be?
you can't change and stay the same
and if an individual changes the relation ships he maintains
must be revised due simply to the fact that he is not the same person.

maybe underneath, the same, but the aspects being explored and moved into of their personality will be what you are reunited with.
i may or may not have contradicted above statement, but...

you can love who someone was
love what they are going to be

but when you don't know either, and you still love, where do you go?
what do you have to stand on?
when? when you love the person you know is there, but can't see?
yes, when you fall for the raw humanity of a person who supresses that rawness because he views it as vualnerability.

but you know it's there.
always have

a part of a human being that is so raw must still be there,
it's that part of a person that, at it's core, willnever change - just wear many masks.

but if the part you love is burried, can you still love what is exposed?
even it if is completely contradictory of what you love? even if you know it is a lie, show, wall.
how can you not?
but how can you?

so how about this:
you have loved this person that only you see - that is guised through reputation to the rest of the world - when you see this person again, even after a brief hiatus, or a long one,
won't you, regardless of cercumstance, see that person you fell for the first time?

isn't it natural to see what you want to see
even at just at first?

sure, because we are all looking to fullfill ourselves,
we all just want to feel. be inspired.

if you found it in somewhere once
you'll look again
even if it is just insurance, just superstion.
ritual.

maybe i am just looking to hard
afraid to abandon ritual - even harmfull ritual -
or maybe i just don't know what i am talking about.