7.28.2006

unitended emotional crimes


you see this huge glimps of a person, see them in the heat of the thing they are most passionate about, know right at that moment that this a person you want...need...to be close too and you put up walls.

you put up walls because you know thats what he wants, and you know that is what he has done.

who am i to break down these walls?
arnt i always angry when someone trys to tear down mine?

or am i just scared?
... better yet has anyone actually acknowledged that there are walls that need to be taken down.

thats it.
i see these walls...his walls...and i want to tear them down.
where's the green light?
i don't even know where to look for it.

is it bad to lie to yourself this much?
you are putting up walls to block out what you have spent so long looking for...


or is it just that i want so much what i can't have?
no it's more than that.

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