11.04.2006

die with the season

is it ironic that my favorite season is the one in which everything changes, falls, and decays?
but if you think about it, everything does that - - love, self image, people, circumstance, personal development, relationships, life. - - what doesn't grow, change, fall away and decay?

really?

something - anything - starts growing, metaphoricly, literally, it starts changing, most likely for the better as it's cognitivly pleasing. the change sets in, you feel acustomed to it, maybe you even like it. the minuet you start to anticipate liking what you see, is the moment it starts to fade away, fall out of your sight. and when something falls away and you can't see it, it will rot, wether in your memory, from your memory, or literally, it will decompose into some other - normally usefull but potentially harmful - product.

the decay is the product of the change.
but why does falling have to mean deteriorating?
does wanting change have to mean loosing something in return?

where's the saccharine heat? the bitter cold?
do you even miss them when they are gone?
and what does it mean to transition?

maybe the fall is a time of rebirth, reguvination.
or maybe its a time for death.


forgiving?
disapointing.


half full or empty? - and from where are you looking?



solid gold to
fun house glass
scars (the)carbon hope.
a self inflicted
tragic flaw
compulsive fear
makes dibelievers feel.

turn around and look
strangers eyes
in a stranger face
(w.)after taste of
bite size words
eaten past the date

we will fall away
rot in the mirror
loosing color?
make me bleed
with stale desent

- just the start of a thought

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