sword and sheild

" the devil you know is safer than the chance you take with something new."

. . of course we are drawn to familiar things, but i think that we can also be drawn to things, people, even situations that we otherwise steal ourselves away from until they are right in front of us.

you say to your self that you will stay away, you won't go back, you don't want "this." but then you run right back to it anyway.

but you know, its safe territory, its ritual. etc. etc.

still, i think it's more than that.
maybe we fall into patterns - not even patterns we like or want - but patterns that are subconscious.

you keep people at bay with physical affection because it is easier than going through the whole emotional connection cycle.
you'd rather be alone and wanting. because if you are wanting something at least you are inspired. when you have what you want you fall into the ritual of comfort and therefor you loose yourself to this thing - this want - and you are unimpassioned.

because having what you want is a much less pleasing a thing than wanting.

and because it is human nature to want and to be impassioned. and one finds purpose in wanting and achieving . . therefor never being satisfied with acquiring what they want.

but then does this not make fidelity a moot point?
and if fidelity is a moot point then what else is? the foundation of human principles of familiarity and satisfaction are negated by our general inclination to constantly want.

so does that make us selfish? or does that make us human?

and if it makes us human . . whats that. really?