Frankenstein

is it wrong to want human closeness - body heat in a matter of speaking?
not heat because you are shivering, just heat because you are numb.
some kind of warped sort of emotional booty call . . .

so what happends if, say, you stock pile it. . . cram as much in a night as you can so that when you look back on it you sort of hate yourself and rebell against wanting to be rid of such numbness.

but in this process arn't you just intiving another sort of novicane into your circulation.
you crave a sense of urgency, risk, sponetineity . . . power. but in that reconstruction of lost feelings, you really assemble some sort of stranger inside yourself to take over when you want to be loved.

and love, we all know is a relative term.

it's craving so much heat that you would die to be cold.

if you reject what you want because you've got to much of it then arn't you back to where you started? and in fulfilling such wants, what if you got more than you bargined for? how do you compinsate for the surplus, that emotional after taste that no matter how you try you can't spit out.

theres you're new numbness.
and that is something you didn't need.

it's those grey areas, and the breaking out from under them thats a bitch.