momentum

isn't it interesting how wanting something is enough.

enough to feel something, forget something, destroy something, loose something.
and it doesn't matter what you want either, could be you want to forget, distract, hurt, feel, fall, stand up, anything.

but in automatcally thinking about wanting something, isn't part of you hoping for destruction? even if it's on a small scale?
if you know you want something, you are wanting to want something. if you want to want it, do you really want it? or do you just want the justifcation of wanting.

- - did that make sense?
maybe.

it's thinking about something to much, probably because you don't trust yourself to make the right descision. when you look at someone elses problems it is easy to tell which is the right path and which is wrong. but yourself? - no so if you look at it from outside of your body you think you are helping yourself. not so.

your over thinking, if you think like you would and like someone else would, how will anything ever be accomplished.

it's trust
and promises.

what if you dont know you can make them?
trial and error hurts.

it's just one more person who wants to be saved, in a way - yes.
but in more ways, i think he wants to save me.

maybe that's what you want
or maybe it's just what i need.

- - but if you need it,
part of you must want it.