what's left?

maybe it's just that i need someone not to give up on me
or run away from me.
someone to drag me kicking and screaming into love
into belief
into a faith in someone else again.

everything keeps falling away from me
all emotionally susquent pieces of my life
so why put faith in emotion?
why when it is only going to be ripped away from you?

the studio
the him
the feelings
the self worth
the insperation
the hate
the fear, even

what's left?
what's worth it?
how do i even try again...how, after a while, do you not blame yourself?
not the "him" 's not the situations, not the authorities or cercumstanstes, but yourself.

make me hollow
make me love the hunger
let me find religion in the mirrior
let me be blindly healed

why not?