7.27.2011

but- yearning

is wanting a by product of insecurity? do we long for things because we need reassurance .. reassurance that we made the right decision, or felt rational emotions, or made the right choice?

are these cravings a way to insure that we, in some way, justify our actions to ourselves .. and the only reason we might need justification is because we fear that what we experienced was temporary .. is it easier to seek out experiences, people, feelings because it feels better than accepting finality.

or is it that we seek reassurance that we are also wanted, regardless of what our rational mind knows doesn't some part of us need to know that some one is also craving us in return? that our sometimes desperate need for contact, for a repeat experience, is really colored by a need to be validated?

and how do we curb this wanting and remember an experience with a clear head? or would a clear head, in fact, destroy the allure of the experience to begin with? if we were always remembering things with a level head, emotionless and unaffected, then we would not crave this thing to begin with.

perhaps .. in all of this .. the thing to note is that you deemed it (somewhere in you head) worth romanticizing enough to crave .. and that could be all that matters.

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