love me back

is it possible we focus so intently on knowing how good we could be for other people that we forget to demand other people be good for us? 

at what point do you realize you have gained nothing from any (intimate) relationship in which you have entered? about the point you realize nothing has changed .  . 

i could play this game blind folded with both hands tied behind my back -a fact i am less than proud of  .. i hate that i am not surprised by the indecency of human behavior or the faithless tendencies of anyone promising to love you. 

but what's worse is my fear that if i demand more from these people i will lose them. even worse is the fear of losing superficial relationships like these to begin with.

lack of confrontational skills? lack of other options? lack of ability to believe i will find/deserve something better? 

D.) all of the above